Category Archives: About The Girl

1 year ago

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One year ago our little girl came into the world rather unexpected. And she has been a surprise ever since.
Before you have a child, you can’t really imagine the idea of creating a new person with a its very own character. When you have a second child, you can’t imagine it even being different from the first one.
Yet, she is so very different. I love discovering who this little girl is.
It’s so awesome to be part of her journey and watch her grow.

The Fear

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Time for a confession; I’ve had fear of failure for most of my life.

The biggest challenge in my past was undoubtedly Art School.
I loved being creative but then there is also the judging of your work…
I was so concerned with the reactions of my teachers that instead of following my own creativity and use their comments as guidelines, I tried to create something that met with their approval loosing my own ideas in the process. Which (ask any art school student) is a sure fire way to NOT get any.
Finally the fear of failure made me frieze up and literally nothing would come out of my hands. In the end I dropped out of art school and fled to the safety of the university.

But I did want to protect that creative part of myself by giving myself an outlet, a place where I could just focus on beauty and creativity, where I would be inspired. A place to document my own creative journey. This became my blog.

When I became pregnant for the second time last year, I felt so drained of everything that being creative was almost impossible. I just got it together long enough to do something with the nursery and than basically just took a really long nap.

Blogging was hard and it became harder and harder. This past year I’ve tried to breathe and reboot so many times. But I couldn’t keep it up.
Blogging became something I forced myself to do.
Obviously this didn’t work. How can you give anything when you feel like you have nothing to give?

I started to compare myself to others and felt inadequate.
Blogging became tied in with my fear of failure.
I felt I had let myself down in the worst way.
Maybe I had even been wrong about myself all along.
Maybe I wasn’t creative at all. Maybe I was just all talk and no game.
Blogging became just a confirmation of my own failure.
And being a mom for the second time, working and managing our lives were all great excuses of why I simply didn’t have the time to blog.
I even stopped reading other blogs.

Recently I started to think about what to do with this blog. Do I want to quit? Try again?  What?

Then I got the flu (usually not a good thing) en forced to stay in bed I visited Dos Family (one of my favourites) and suddenly it clicked.
I looked at all their crazy/lovely/beautiful/insane posts and I realized what Jenny and Isabelle were doing. They aren’t trying to become something else or show something that wasn’t there.
Jenny and Isabelle share their lives tidy or not, styled or not, trendy or not. They embrace who they are and share every quirky bit of it.

So why was I so concerned with failing? If I want to blog, I can!
There are no rules; there are no requirements only the ones I created in my head. Rules that I made by comparing myself to others.
But I’m not a professional blogger, I blog because I want to.
I blog, because I like to experiment and create.
And I can do it any way I want.

So I am done making up rules for myself, compare myself or censure myself.
Time for a fresh start and show a little more of me.

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Lucky 2014

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Just like with overdue christmas trees I was thought that you could also keep wishing people a happy new year until the sixth of january (Three Kings).
So here it goes….
Because 2013 was so sucky, I hope 2014 will be lucky!
I wish you all a whole lot of luck this year in every endeavour!

Bye 2013

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Some years are a little better then others. 2013 turned out to be not so good. Actually it kind of really really sucked, like a lot. 2013 was our ‘between a rock and a hard place’-year. Both me and the Boyfriend were dealt some though times. We handled them as best we could and I’m happy to say; we are still standing.
Of course 2013 wasn’t all bad, our baby girl was born and she is such a cheerful sweet baby and she is doing so well. Mini turned 4 and is thriving in primary school.
Still, I think that 2013 is sooooo 2013 and I can’t wait to start 2014!

Count Your Blessings

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Last weekend Marlous, Cristian, Anki and me took a little trip to Zeeland. A weekend spent chatting, laughing, eating, (thrift)shopping in Brugge and just relaxing by the sea.

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I don’t really count blessings that often. But I’m very blessed to know these crazy, funny and sweet people (and even though you missed this trip,that includes you Iris!)

zeeland#4A funny thing when hanging out with other bloggers is everyone’s obsession with their phone and/or camera. We’re all just a bunch of weirdo’s… 😉

Moth Love

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Because this summer was all about baby, attention for us as a couple was on the backburner. But this July Le Boyfriend and I celebrated our anniversary, 9 years together! And this year we  decided on a new tradition. Instead of both of us buying each other gifts, we join forces and buy something together that we both really like. This started last year with our Bananas sign to commemorate the year we’ve had (it too was bananas). So when  Boyfriend suggested we’d do a similar thing this year, I was on board! I really like the idea of picking out something together to celebrate each year we shared. 
This year we choose to give each other the Snowpuppe Moth lamp for in our bed room. 

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Maternity Leave (is over)

It’s been awfully quiet here as I have been enjoying/surviving our baby girl’s first months. And today I thought is was high time to share a few images from the first couple of days. Like my first proper meeting with this little lady after a C-section.

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She’s 3 months old now and my maternity leave is over. So that means getting back to work and blogging as well!
It’s been a longer absence than I was planning on, but as fate would have it breast milk actually destroyed my computer (I spilt it on the keyboard and then everything went dark FOREVER).  For now I’m making due  with  a macbook from 2005 The Boyfriend dug up. But I guess that will do for a while at least I’m back online!beginning.003